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droppedstitch

Not a very good father, it seems.

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neverwaitslong

Mm. I suppose not.

A dozen breaches now, and this was the first that gave me a parent. I'd hoped I would continue escaping that.

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droppedstitch

There was much of Mikodez in Michael, if that eases your mind.

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neverwaitslong

Does it? Or does that make it worse?

Even now that I'm willing to trust some people, the idea of parents sets my teeth on edge. If he were wildly different in this life, that would be easy. Sometimes hard things are worth it, but they're still hard.

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droppedstitch

You're putting a lot of expectations on yourself, Ulla! There's no need to jump so far ahead.

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neverwaitslong

I didn't mean I planned on letting myself be adopted tomorrow.

I just meant... it's easier to let pieces of an alternate life go when the parallels are few and far between.

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droppedstitch

You would know better than me.

What parts do you want to let go of?

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neverwaitslong

[Ulla's tone is rueful.]

Mostly just my memories of having a doting father. Everything else was alright.

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droppedstitch

It is difficult to have memories of something you could never have.

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neverwaitslong

Yes. Or memories that dig into things unexpectedly. I knew my parents hadn't been... entirely good, but I never considered an alternative. It was just the way things were, and mostly irrelevant now that I've left them behind.

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droppedstitch

And now you have that alternative.

Something so close to what you had before?

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neverwaitslong

You're jumping ahead while he's being patient. He hasn't asked or offered that. Not yet, at least.

Advocating on his behalf?

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droppedstitch

[He just laughs.]

He is my brother. Maybe I'm being nosy!

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neverwaitslong

[There are definite echoes of Aunt Effie in that laugh. Or the other way around. She enjoys it despite herself.]

Have you already been nosy in his direction?

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droppedstitch

Oh daily.

What else are brothers for?

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neverwaitslong

Maybe you're just a more incorrigible sibling than I am.

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droppedstitch

Oh most definitely.

You have siblings here?

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neverwaitslong

Two brothers wanted to keep me after breaches. Jasper was easier, since I already trusted him more than most on board, but at least I knew Will. I also gained a brother in law, Will's husband Malcolm.

I have a human half brother back in my world, but we only spoke a couple of times. He was... honest, but not kind. I don't think he knew how to be. My brothers here know better.

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droppedstitch

Mikodez and I have a rather large family. Four parents, brothers and sisters, and nieces and nephews.

The more family, the better, I say.

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neverwaitslong

Mm. I spent my first two years on board doing my best to hate everyone I cared about and wanted to trust. It felt too dangerous to let anyone close.

It's a good thing my warden and my fiance had already worn me down, or Jasper and Will wouldn't have stood a chance after those breaches. You and Mikodez wouldn't stand a chance after this one.

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droppedstitch

And wouldn't that have been a disaster?!

[He seems quite sincere.]

Do you only drink tea?

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neverwaitslong

I'll drink other things, but we rarely keep alcohol in our cabin, so if that's what you prefer I'd meet you elsewhere.

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droppedstitch

Come to mine. I have wine in my cupboard.

[He pauses.]

It's Mikodez's cabin, actually, but he's out.

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neverwaitslong

[Ulla laughs softly.]

Alright. Which cabin would that be?

I'm back in my aquatic form, so you know to expect it. And I should properly introduce you to Hjerte. The octopus you saw me with before. He's a part of me given his own voice and body, not a separate creature. He talks, when he feels like it.