You've only seen me human-shaped, haven't you? I'm half human, but
it's not the form I'm most used to or comfortable in. I only use it when
navigating the ship in my usual form grows tiresome.
I'm sildroher. My people are aquatic, with a tail and gills, and I grew up
underwater. We use song for everything. Magic, stories, history.
There's land. All sildroher can take human form, for a time. Which is how
I'm half human. Sildroher aren't supposed to be able to bear
children with humans. But my mother was a human witch who went to bed with
my father during his summer on shore, and here I am. [Ulla doesn't
sound affectionate toward either parent.] I was born with a tail,
so she gave me to him to raise.
I don't know what he felt about raising me. [A telling statement, in and of itself.] I do know that he lied to me
my entire life, then threw a fit at the notion of me visiting shore with
other sildroher once I was grown. He didn't want to risk me learning the
truth.
He couldn't stop me, but he did refuse to provide me with human clothes to
try and trap me underwater. I scavenged rags from a shipwreck and made
them myself. That's where the clothing spells I offered you began.
Even now that I'm willing to trust some people, the idea of parents sets my
teeth on edge. If he were wildly different in this life, that would be
easy. Sometimes hard things are worth it, but they're still hard.
Yes. Or memories that dig into things unexpectedly. I knew my parents
hadn't been... entirely good, but I never considered an alternative. It
was just the way things were, and mostly irrelevant now that I've left them
behind.
Two brothers wanted to keep me after breaches. Jasper was easier, since I
already trusted him more than most on board, but at least I knew Will. I
also gained a brother in law, Will's husband Malcolm.
I have a human half brother back in my world, but we only spoke a couple of
times. He was... honest, but not kind. I don't think he knew how to be.
My brothers here know better.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 02:37 am (UTC)It seems a novelty to be able to stay on one world. What was your home like?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 02:52 am (UTC)You've only seen me human-shaped, haven't you? I'm half human, but it's not the form I'm most used to or comfortable in. I only use it when navigating the ship in my usual form grows tiresome.
I'm sildroher. My people are aquatic, with a tail and gills, and I grew up underwater. We use song for everything. Magic, stories, history.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 02:53 am (UTC)And is there land or is it only water?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 03:01 am (UTC)There's land. All sildroher can take human form, for a time. Which is how I'm half human. Sildroher aren't supposed to be able to bear children with humans. But my mother was a human witch who went to bed with my father during his summer on shore, and here I am. [Ulla doesn't sound affectionate toward either parent.] I was born with a tail, so she gave me to him to raise.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 03:16 am (UTC)Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 03:26 am (UTC)I don't know what he felt about raising me. [A telling statement, in and of itself.] I do know that he lied to me my entire life, then threw a fit at the notion of me visiting shore with other sildroher once I was grown. He didn't want to risk me learning the truth.
He couldn't stop me, but he did refuse to provide me with human clothes to try and trap me underwater. I scavenged rags from a shipwreck and made them myself. That's where the clothing spells I offered you began.
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Date: 2025-06-01 03:28 am (UTC)Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 03:31 am (UTC)Mm. I suppose not.
A dozen breaches now, and this was the first that gave me a parent. I'd hoped I would continue escaping that.
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Date: 2025-06-01 03:42 am (UTC)Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 03:55 am (UTC)Does it? Or does that make it worse?
Even now that I'm willing to trust some people, the idea of parents sets my teeth on edge. If he were wildly different in this life, that would be easy. Sometimes hard things are worth it, but they're still hard.
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Date: 2025-06-01 03:56 am (UTC)Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 04:01 am (UTC)I didn't mean I planned on letting myself be adopted tomorrow.
I just meant... it's easier to let pieces of an alternate life go when the parallels are few and far between.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 04:03 am (UTC)What parts do you want to let go of?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 04:29 am (UTC)[Ulla's tone is rueful.]
Mostly just my memories of having a doting father. Everything else was alright.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 01:16 pm (UTC)Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 01:58 pm (UTC)Yes. Or memories that dig into things unexpectedly. I knew my parents hadn't been... entirely good, but I never considered an alternative. It was just the way things were, and mostly irrelevant now that I've left them behind.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 05:26 pm (UTC)Something so close to what you had before?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 06:14 pm (UTC)You're jumping ahead while he's being patient. He hasn't asked or offered that. Not yet, at least.
Advocating on his behalf?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 06:37 pm (UTC)He is my brother. Maybe I'm being nosy!
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 07:50 pm (UTC)[There are definite echoes of Aunt Effie in that laugh. Or the other way around. She enjoys it despite herself.]
Have you already been nosy in his direction?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 08:18 pm (UTC)What else are brothers for?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-01 08:34 pm (UTC)Maybe you're just a more incorrigible sibling than I am.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-02 01:13 am (UTC)You have siblings here?
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-02 01:24 am (UTC)Two brothers wanted to keep me after breaches. Jasper was easier, since I already trusted him more than most on board, but at least I knew Will. I also gained a brother in law, Will's husband Malcolm.
I have a human half brother back in my world, but we only spoke a couple of times. He was... honest, but not kind. I don't think he knew how to be. My brothers here know better.
Re: Private | Voice
Date: 2025-06-02 01:44 am (UTC)The more family, the better, I say.
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